Monday, September 29, 2008

Procrastination and Writer's Block

Recently an ex-classmate and an ex-work colleague got in touch with me. They had heard I was writing a novel and wanted some advice. They were at different stages of writing their novel and had differing approaches to the writing process, but both had reached a hurdle that they could not overcome. One had hit a 'boring' part that he could not face tackling, while the other was such a perfectionist that it took him several months to write a chapter.

I've come across both types of problem while writing this novel, and here are the ways and means that I've used to overcome them.

1. Don't let the FEAR put you off
I've written about the FEAR many times in this blog because it is something that has paralysed my writing progress again and again. It is the major reason why I procrastinate - every morning I would worry that I did not have the ability, talent and originality to write or edit a novel. I would read over my work and feel my stomach twisting with self-loathing and disappointment. Sleepless nights were spent imagining nasty rejections and friends unable to look me in the face after reading my work. I even worried that if I did land a publishing deal I would be unable to write another. Regardless of whether it is the fear of failure or the fear of success, both have the power to bring a writer to their knees.

The FEAR is still hanging around but has been reduced significantly through practice. As I inched through the first and second draft my confidence rocketed. I realised that not only COULD I do this, I WAS doing it. That my writing was improving, that I was finding my unique voice, style and rhythm, that I did have something to say. And when the familiar anxiety comes knocking I've developed a few methods of banishing it, which are next.

2. Don't be afraid to write junk
Writing is a skill like playing an instrument, or a craft like carpentry. No budding violinist would expect to play Beethoven after their first lesson, nor would a carpentry apprentice expect to build and carve a beautiful chair without many months of trial and error.

However many writers, myself included, are struck with crises of confidence and motivation when their early stabs at writing lack the finesse and colour of their favourite novelists or poets. For some reason many of us think writing is an innate ability that should flow from us in perfectly crafted sentences. Good writers may be born, but practice makes them great.

Even the most determined and talented writer will find their first draft veers from their pre-arranged plot and characterisation. Maybe a new character pops into your head to help you with your premise, or you decide that the plot should change to support the character's motivation or back story. This is the enjoyable part of the first draft, when you begin to live the story so much that the changes feel like organic and natural progressions.

But if you are too much of a perfectionist with your first draft you might find yourself detesting and ignoring these gut feelings, as they mean you must go back over the previous chapters and make edits to reflect those changes. And when you are doing so you'll probably find other parts that you're not happy with.

Some writers are happy with this process, and if it works for you keep at it. But if you find yourself blocked perhaps you need to give yourself permission to let go during your first draft and not look back. Allow yourself to follow these creative twists and turns, as you are building material as you go along. When it's time to rewrite you can look at the entire manuscript with a critical eye, removing parts that are unimportant or editing sections that are not tight enough - thus taking this building material and shaping it further. It's important to trust your instincts, and if you make a mistake you will learn from it.

3. Cheat or treat yourself
Sometimes when the thought of writing is too much to bear I make deals with myself to make sure I park my bum in front of the laptop. Sometimes I tell myself that I only have to write 100 words, no more. Usually once I've started I'll write much more than that, thus banishing any reasons why I was procrastinating in the first place.

Other times I think of a treat to motivate myself, like as soon as I do x amount of words I'll read a book, watch a tv programme I've taped or a film that I love.

4. Use freewriting when your writing is stale
There are times when I cannot face looking at my novel, whether it's because I don't know where it's heading, or I'm having a crisis of confidence about the characters or plot, or it's just feeling like a chore. Many writers jump ahead to another chapter; however I find this difficult to do, as it means I am just delaying the inevitable and it takes so long to reimmerse my mind in that section when I return.

When the words won't come due to a lack of inspiration or a wobble, I turn to freewriting. It could be a back story for a character I'm struggling with, or the explanation to fill in a plothole, or something entirely different to give myself a break. Writing something that's short and self-contained can be a great boost to my confidence and creativity.

5. Examine plot holes and motivations
Often I stop short when writing because I'm trying to make a character do something that doesn't fit their personality, or the plot has taken a turn that makes no sense to the rest of the story. If you're stuck at a particular scene and can't move past it, maybe go over the back stories of the characters or the reasoning behind the plot development.

For example, having a shy character suddenly confront a bully without the necessary build up or provocation might stop you in your writing tracks. If that's the case, perhaps create some kind of a crucible or situation that would explain this sudden bravery, or show a more gradual development of his or her character.

6. Take a break
If the writing still won't come, maybe you need a break. The odd duvet day gives my writing a fantastic shot in the arm - usually it's when I refuse to worry about a plot point or a character the solution comes to me, and if I'm just burned out from writing too much a break is just the thing to kick-start my word count the next day.

7. Find out what motivates you
Great teachers recognise that people are motivated in different ways, and use whatever methods they can to encourage their students.

I'm primarily motivated by pride and guilt, which is why I took time off work to write this novel (so that I would feel guilty whenever a day went by when I didn't write) and why I told everyone that I was writing it (so that whenever I was with friends they would ask me how I was progressing, therefore spurring me on to write more).

I have been lucky enough to have had several writing and editing jobs previously to know what got me going, but everyone knows the best way they motivate themselves to exercise, do the cleaning or other activities that they like to put off.

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I hope you found this useful – please note that I have not yet gone through a typical writer’s block where authors struggle to write a word for months or years on end. These tips are just ways that I’ve overcome the little hurdles.

What methods do you use to get yourselves to your desk, banish the negative voices in your head and start writing even when you’d rather pull out your own hair at the root?

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Divine Intervention

A good week on the writing front, 4000 words rewritten in four days.

Yesterday I braved the big bad world to get a crochet hook and some yarn, as I've been invited to a Stitch and Bitch session at Michelle's house. Michelle is a talented and prolific crocheter (is that a word?) and she has promised to give any newbies a few lessons. I've been keen to get a crafty hobby for a while now and when I found out I could actually crochet and watch tv at the same time I was won over.

So I wandered into Hickey's on Henry Street, where the staff and half the ladies shopping there joined forces to give a crochet virgin the low-down on yarn types and crochet hook sizes. I emerged with enough for a scarf (very challenging I know) and decided to do a spot of window shopping. After all I couldn't afford to do the real thing...

How was I to know that the gods of shopping would laugh in the face of my naive plans and go all out? A shop window must have hypnotised me as I found myself in the changing room with a top and a skirt, both just happening to fit my short-arse frame perfectly. A mere mortal cannot fight divine intervention such as this. Instead one must roll over and go with the flow, and that's exactly what I did. Two hours later I was home, €100 lighter but very pleased with myself.

Unfortunately I received no help with my hangover this morning after a night of drinking with Daisy and her lovely boyfriend. But after a cup of tea and some scrambled eggs I'm feeling more human.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Homepages

I had a duvet day yesterday - I thought a break from writing would help my listlessness - and it seemed to have worked, because in the afternoon I wrote a piece for Homepages - Stories From the Irish Blogosphere, which is a book-to-blog project by Catherine to raise funds for Focus Ireland. Pauline McLynn, writer, actor and blogger extraordinaire is writing the introduction.

The theme is "home" and Catherine is looking for eighty stories, recipes or other text and twenty black and white photos for the book. So if you're a blogger, blog reader or blog commenter of any nationality living in Ireland, or Irish living abroad, submit a piece and spread the word! It's for an amazing cause.

Regarding my novel progress I've rewritten 2700 words so far which is not bad going. I'm still very much wrapped up in this story but I'm determined to write a post about Barcelona and a few about my experiences of overcoming procrastination and writer's block.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Blog Burn-Out

Feeling a bit of blog burn-out at the moment. Mostly I can't think of anything original or informative to say and when I do think of something I can't get motivated to write it down. The same thing happened around the same time last year, not sure why. I just feel like I'm repeating myself and not addressing things that wannabe writers might find useful.

Otherwise things are going well. I'm still working away at the novel and I'm hoping to finish the eighth story in two weeks. My recruitment agency has advised me that the long-term contracts won't be coming up until next month, so until then I'm happy to keep writing.

And I have another busy weekend ahead, going to Daisy's on Friday for drinks and going out with my dad for dinner on Saturday.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Pins and Needles

I finished the paper edit for the eighth story today, took me two shifts (my hand was worse than usual afterwards) but it was worth the pins and needles. Starting on the rewrite tomorrow.

As always I started the edit worrying about the ending, not knowing where it was going, and as always the story worked its way out. When will I ever learn? But I have a sneaky feeling that if I stop worrying about my writing it will all go to hell, so maybe it's not a bad thing.

The weekend was amazing, I'm still feeling the after effects. When you're thirty-something hangovers tend to last for two days...it's not fair, dammit!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Reality

I returned from Barcelona on Sunday - I had a fantastic time, what a beautiful and magical city! - but since then I haven't felt like blogging. Perhaps I was avoiding following the usual routine for a few more days? Maybe I didn't want to get back to (virtual) reality?

But the weekend has nearly arrived, which is not unlike a mini-holiday, and I have lots planned. Tonight is Culture Night, where over 100 museums, galleries and arts organisations open their doors until 11 pm this evening. Eager to 'get cultured up', a group of us are going to wander around the Christchurch and Temple Bar area. We'll be visiting a pub later obviously as culture and arts go hand-in-hand with alcohol. Trust me, I'm a writer. Hic.

And tomorrow is my good friend Sinead's 30th birthday. We don't see each other that often so I'm really looking forward to catching up and letting my hair down.

I still don't have a job - the longer-term temp contracts won't be available until next month apparently - but I have been editing the eighth story like a demon.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Cervical Check



So I'm not off to Barcelona until the crack of dawn tomorrow morning, but I've done most of my packing already. Can you tell I'm excited?

But before I go I wanted to share some important information with you. On Saturday Ireland rolled out Cervical Check, a national screening programme that provides free smear tests to all women aged 25-60. All you need is your PPS number.

As it is quite new not all the practitioners who offer it are listed yet, but my local family planning clinic (IFPA) on Cathal Brugha Street offers free smear tests under this scheme. Regular smears could save your life - so if it's been more than three years since your last smear, please don't delay in booking a test.

Monday, September 01, 2008

Pre-Holibob Limbo

Here I am, slightly fazed after a jam-packed weekend, not knowing what to do with myself. Barcelona is only three sleeps away and I'm in a pre-holibob limbo, desperately trying to remember absolutely everything that we need.

I've been entertained with tales of common scams and pick-pocket methods in the city. Well scratch 'entertained' and replace with 'freaked out' - the thought of having my cards, travel documents and brand new gadgets lopped off my shoulder with a well-placed razor blade was enough to send me on a quest for the bag-that-shall-never-be-nicked (across the body, thick shoulder strap, zip AND flap). After visiting every store on Grafton and Henry Street, my back and feet aching and several flare ups of 'pavement rage' still pounding in my ears, I found this. Pick-pocketers just you try and rob me now! (Actually please don't.)

Another issue that has been playing on my mind is what happens when my glowing white hide is exposed to the rays from that burning rock in the sky. Apparently there isn't a huge call for factor 30 by the locals so a trip to Boots is required. I was reading up on safe tanning and was shocked to discover that sun tan lotion must be reapplied every 30 minutes! Sounds like a lot of effort to me - might just get one of those massive parasols and drink cocktails under it.