Saturday, August 23, 2008

Hormones

Well I'm back, as I'm not writing today my brain is finally freed up to do other things.

I wrote 4500 words this week but it was a tough five days. PMT doesn't usually feature that strongly in my life - normally I just crave chocolate and get a bit weepy over charity ads - but this week my hormones left me a nervous wreck. Add to this a particularly harrowing story and I was left with a weighted sadness that bore down heavily on my shoulders.

I felt so desperately lonely on Wednesday that I made a two hour round trip to eat at The Ours' work canteen, but immediately afterwards I felt desolate again. I stumbled down Grafton Street, choking back tears of self-pity, conscious that everyone around me seemed perfectly able to walk around the city without weeping like a baby.

Things didn't improve until last night and I'm glad to say I'm back to my normal contented self this morning. Daisy is having a party tonight and I'm reading up on Barcelona like mad. I've discovered Google Maps' My Maps facility (thanks Michelle!), where I'm personalising a map of Barcelona with recommendations for restaurants, bars and shops. You can even change the placeholders into cutsie icons, so I'm having great fun.

12 comments:

Annie Bright said...

4500 words - that's brilliant!
Hormones are dreadful things at times! I empathise completely! And I'm sorry to hear you have felt low spirited. But glad to hear that you are back to normal, once more. I must appologise again for manageing to delete your last comment on my blog - I actually deleted my whole post when I was supposed to be editing it - and then had to re-write it all from scratch. What a pain! I'm not very good at this, yet! But getting there!

Yvonne said...

Annie, no need to apologise, I've done that a few times! I'd repost the comment if I could remember what I said - this week has been a bit of a haze.

Annie Bright said...

Oh that's good! :-))
Where did the extra 'p'in my 'apologise' come from, do you think? Oh my word - I'm losing track of the mistakes I've made on blogger this week!

HelenMH said...

Welcome back. Sounds like you've been having an emotional but productive time. I'm sure the writing will be all the better for it, but tough on you all the same x

Debs said...

Glad you're feeling much better now.

Hormones can be a nightmare though you did manage to write 4,500 words this week, which is great going.

JJ said...

Horrible hormones. I'm so glad you're feeling better. Holiday planning always helps imo.

Tam said...

Awwww, glad you're feeling a bit better. I do hate that feeling that no-one around knows how you feel and everything is too difficult for words...

Yvonne said...

Annie, it's a pain sometimes, I've lost my rag with it many a time.

Helen I really hope so. I'm quite happy with what I've done so far.

Debs, it's strange but writing really helped in a way, it was a good distraction.

JJ, holiday planning is the best, I can't stop!

Tam, it's a very lonely feeling isn't it? Thankfully I'm over the worst now.

SpiralSkies said...

Bloomin hormones, they're right buggers aren't they?

I ofton wonder, though, whether all this writing and observing and, well, feeling makes us more susceptible to the weepies? Or perhaps vice versa, where we can write about things simply because we train ourselves to see things deeply.

Hmmmmm.

Pat Posner said...

Glad you're feeling better, Yvonne, and what a great word count!!

Yvonne said...

Jen, I agree, I've had to stop myself from over-analysing absolutely everything. Certainly the story I'm working on has affected my mood a lot more than I originally thought it would - the characters are hanging around me like ghosts.

Pat, thanks, hopefully next week will be the same!

KAREN said...

Brilliant word count! Glad you're feeling better now - pesky blummin' hormones.