Showing posts with label writer's block. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writer's block. Show all posts

Monday, September 29, 2008

Procrastination and Writer's Block

Recently an ex-classmate and an ex-work colleague got in touch with me. They had heard I was writing a novel and wanted some advice. They were at different stages of writing their novel and had differing approaches to the writing process, but both had reached a hurdle that they could not overcome. One had hit a 'boring' part that he could not face tackling, while the other was such a perfectionist that it took him several months to write a chapter.

I've come across both types of problem while writing this novel, and here are the ways and means that I've used to overcome them.

1. Don't let the FEAR put you off
I've written about the FEAR many times in this blog because it is something that has paralysed my writing progress again and again. It is the major reason why I procrastinate - every morning I would worry that I did not have the ability, talent and originality to write or edit a novel. I would read over my work and feel my stomach twisting with self-loathing and disappointment. Sleepless nights were spent imagining nasty rejections and friends unable to look me in the face after reading my work. I even worried that if I did land a publishing deal I would be unable to write another. Regardless of whether it is the fear of failure or the fear of success, both have the power to bring a writer to their knees.

The FEAR is still hanging around but has been reduced significantly through practice. As I inched through the first and second draft my confidence rocketed. I realised that not only COULD I do this, I WAS doing it. That my writing was improving, that I was finding my unique voice, style and rhythm, that I did have something to say. And when the familiar anxiety comes knocking I've developed a few methods of banishing it, which are next.

2. Don't be afraid to write junk
Writing is a skill like playing an instrument, or a craft like carpentry. No budding violinist would expect to play Beethoven after their first lesson, nor would a carpentry apprentice expect to build and carve a beautiful chair without many months of trial and error.

However many writers, myself included, are struck with crises of confidence and motivation when their early stabs at writing lack the finesse and colour of their favourite novelists or poets. For some reason many of us think writing is an innate ability that should flow from us in perfectly crafted sentences. Good writers may be born, but practice makes them great.

Even the most determined and talented writer will find their first draft veers from their pre-arranged plot and characterisation. Maybe a new character pops into your head to help you with your premise, or you decide that the plot should change to support the character's motivation or back story. This is the enjoyable part of the first draft, when you begin to live the story so much that the changes feel like organic and natural progressions.

But if you are too much of a perfectionist with your first draft you might find yourself detesting and ignoring these gut feelings, as they mean you must go back over the previous chapters and make edits to reflect those changes. And when you are doing so you'll probably find other parts that you're not happy with.

Some writers are happy with this process, and if it works for you keep at it. But if you find yourself blocked perhaps you need to give yourself permission to let go during your first draft and not look back. Allow yourself to follow these creative twists and turns, as you are building material as you go along. When it's time to rewrite you can look at the entire manuscript with a critical eye, removing parts that are unimportant or editing sections that are not tight enough - thus taking this building material and shaping it further. It's important to trust your instincts, and if you make a mistake you will learn from it.

3. Cheat or treat yourself
Sometimes when the thought of writing is too much to bear I make deals with myself to make sure I park my bum in front of the laptop. Sometimes I tell myself that I only have to write 100 words, no more. Usually once I've started I'll write much more than that, thus banishing any reasons why I was procrastinating in the first place.

Other times I think of a treat to motivate myself, like as soon as I do x amount of words I'll read a book, watch a tv programme I've taped or a film that I love.

4. Use freewriting when your writing is stale
There are times when I cannot face looking at my novel, whether it's because I don't know where it's heading, or I'm having a crisis of confidence about the characters or plot, or it's just feeling like a chore. Many writers jump ahead to another chapter; however I find this difficult to do, as it means I am just delaying the inevitable and it takes so long to reimmerse my mind in that section when I return.

When the words won't come due to a lack of inspiration or a wobble, I turn to freewriting. It could be a back story for a character I'm struggling with, or the explanation to fill in a plothole, or something entirely different to give myself a break. Writing something that's short and self-contained can be a great boost to my confidence and creativity.

5. Examine plot holes and motivations
Often I stop short when writing because I'm trying to make a character do something that doesn't fit their personality, or the plot has taken a turn that makes no sense to the rest of the story. If you're stuck at a particular scene and can't move past it, maybe go over the back stories of the characters or the reasoning behind the plot development.

For example, having a shy character suddenly confront a bully without the necessary build up or provocation might stop you in your writing tracks. If that's the case, perhaps create some kind of a crucible or situation that would explain this sudden bravery, or show a more gradual development of his or her character.

6. Take a break
If the writing still won't come, maybe you need a break. The odd duvet day gives my writing a fantastic shot in the arm - usually it's when I refuse to worry about a plot point or a character the solution comes to me, and if I'm just burned out from writing too much a break is just the thing to kick-start my word count the next day.

7. Find out what motivates you
Great teachers recognise that people are motivated in different ways, and use whatever methods they can to encourage their students.

I'm primarily motivated by pride and guilt, which is why I took time off work to write this novel (so that I would feel guilty whenever a day went by when I didn't write) and why I told everyone that I was writing it (so that whenever I was with friends they would ask me how I was progressing, therefore spurring me on to write more).

I have been lucky enough to have had several writing and editing jobs previously to know what got me going, but everyone knows the best way they motivate themselves to exercise, do the cleaning or other activities that they like to put off.

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I hope you found this useful – please note that I have not yet gone through a typical writer’s block where authors struggle to write a word for months or years on end. These tips are just ways that I’ve overcome the little hurdles.

What methods do you use to get yourselves to your desk, banish the negative voices in your head and start writing even when you’d rather pull out your own hair at the root?

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Dear Muse

How's it hanging? Or floating? Or whatever you do where you are.

Anyhoo...it's been a tough few days I admit. Out of the blue, after months of no contact, I expect you to turn up and just do your thing. (In my defence I've been very busy - secretarial work just doesn't rock my creative boat) So I understand why you're withholding the stardust at the moment.

I'm trying my best to accommodate your needs. As an example, I'm trying to start work early in the morning as I know you're at your twinkliest then. But I didn't figure on being wide awake until four am last night, dozing until one in the afternoon and missing my first Scribblers Corner, thus putting off our quality time for another week.

And when I worry about how long this rewrite will take, whether the savings will stretch that far and the unrealistic timelines I've drawn up, I know it drives you to gorge on chocolate ice-cream while lying prostrate on your sofa rather than musing with me.

But let's put this behind us and make a deal. If I get up at the crack of dawn tomorrow (i.e. 9 am) and start writing straight away, will you pay me a visit? No pressure, just for a catch up. We don't even need to talk shop.

Hope to see you then.

Yvonne

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Quality vs Quantity

Yes, there is no way a writer can do well if they do not monitor the quality of their work, know their grammar and spelling inside out, edit ruthlessly and offer their writing to others for comment and criticism. Writers can turn to writers' groups or creative writing classes for support on these matters.

But last year when I joined these groups and classes, I wasn't necessarily looking for creative writing tips even though they were helpful. Neither was I looking for criticism, because I hadn't actually written anything yet. It was motivation I was seeking - something to spur me on to write regularly after work and to keep up the momentum. And unfortunately I didn't find it in these places.

When I did eventually start writing, it wasn't only by leaving my job and writing full-time, but also by lurking on other writer blogs who regularly posted their daily word count. Perhaps it exposed a competitive edge that served as a tangible deadline. And on days I wobbled or felt lazy, I knew that I wouldn't have a word count to post - and that had me in front of the laptop.

There are two sites that exist to 'kick writing arse' which is the technical term. One is Novel Racers, which I've written about before. The other is National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo), which is coming up next month. The goal is to write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days.

Neither site monitors quality or provides criticism. But that might not be what you want or need at this stage. You may be where I was last year, when I wanted to write but I lacked the continual motivation to do so. Or maybe you just need a little nudge to get started. And then when you've got over the hump of staring at a blank screen, have got into the habit of writing every day and you've found your style - then you can start rewriting and seek out a great writers' group that can give you some feedback and some quality control.

Or like the NaNoWriMo site says:

Make no mistake: You will be writing a lot of crap. And that's a good thing. By forcing yourself to write so intensely, you are giving yourself permission to make mistakes. To forgo the endless tweaking and editing and just create. To build without tearing down.

(By the way, I'm sure that other writers will have examples of when a group did spur them on to write. I'm just saying that, in my experience, there is another way to motivate writers.)

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Becoming unstuck

I have a confession to make. Over the past two weeks I've become more and more disillusioned with my writing, which chipped away at my motivation. I just wasn't writing well enough, my last story was a mess, I was running out of ideas - it was just too hard.

Then last night, after I gave myself a good talking to, I realised that wallowing in self-doubt and self-pity is the reason I have writer's block. To get writing again, I had to stop complaining, toughen up and keep going. A few setbacks were not going to stop me from finishing this novel.

The FEAR can be useful - a small amount can be motivating. But if I don't keep an eye on it, it can stop my momentum dead. The whispers began - I'm not good, strong and talented enough, this novel is completely beyond me - and mushroomed until I couldn't imagine anyone would ever want to read the crap that I'm putting down, and how would they be able to keep their disappointment and distaste from showing on their faces when they read my work? It's enough to stop anyone right in their tracks, and that's what happened to me.

So last night I thought - sod it. My writing could actually be decent, but it's easier to listen to the negative instincts than the positive ones. And if it is true that my writing is dodgy or my stories are awful, this is a first draft after all. The main thing that encourages good writing is writing every day. This is the only fact amongst all my speculation and conjecture, so I had better get on with it.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Lecture

Not sure why but I'm still feeling very run down and tired, even though I had an easy time of it this weekend. Am also not happy with the remaining three story plots - I will crack on by tomorrow with or without a breakthrough, as I don't want to encourage writer's block.

I'll probably have to spend today giving myself a good talking to though.

Friday, June 15, 2007

Blocked

2111 words so far today. That's as much as I'll probably manage, even though I'd prefer to keep writing; it's raining outside, the weak light picks out the browns and greys and dulls the rest. Or it's my low mood that is muddying the colours. Today's effort was not good enough, the words kept coming but they were awkward and unpolished, the story going around and around in useless circles.

My story feels like a bud in the ground that's straining to break through the soil. It knows where it has to go but it can't get there; something is blocking its way, and I can't figure out how to overcome it. Yesterday the direction of the story made sense to me, but today I feel like I've removed its heart and left an ugly tangle of clumsy flashbacks and forced conversations.

No use feeling sorry for myself, because it's my own fault...I've been imposing the ending I wanted on the main character, but it just isn't a fit. I saw him at first as a weak and introverted anti-hero, but his sensitivity and depth of thought have taken me by surprise and I'm now cheering him on from the sidelines.

While I was writing the above I suddenly realised what the problem was. I had a point I wanted to make with this story, and I'll still be able to make it. But another character will take the hit, not him.

Thanks for listening, it helps.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Done

I finished my fourth story today. It's too long, all over the place in parts and the descriptions need a lot of work, but it's finally done. It's a relief.

After yesterday's struggle I felt discouraged, so it took me a few hours to get started this morning. But today my typing just couldn't keep up. The ending suddenly became clear and I knew exactly what to say.

I have no idea how to increase the good days and reduce the bad ones. But I don't want to become one of those writers who wait for inspiration to hit them, like an invisible green light. I'd use it as an excuse to procrastinate rather than write. It has to be a job rather than a hobby, so I knuckle down every day regardless of whether I want to or not. And usually I become inspired after I've started, like today.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Bad day

Today each sentence ran a gauntlet of trepidation and doubt before I finally wrestled it down on paper and moved on. At the 500 words mark my head felt empty, like I'd just taken a two hour exam. I took a break, shoveled cereal until I could take no more and faced the demon again.

I struggled with the descriptions the most. Each one screamed cliche! bland! ordinary! as I typed, making me long for the days of office politics, obnoxious clients and brain-numbing Basel II reports. Almost.

Eventually my brain refused to keep feeding me words and cut me off, so I had to stop. I had written 1751 words, but it had been the most disappointing and disheartening day since I'd started my novel.

Tomorrow better be another day.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Performance anxiety

I have another 22 hours or so until I start working on my novel again but I'm already feeling nervous about it. I'm pretty sure this comes from feeling inadequate - wondering whether I'll be able to write tomorrow and do a good job - which annoys me because I've been writing for three months now and I should be feeling more comfortable and confident about what I'm doing. After all I've been preparing for this my whole life so maybe I should give myself a break and have a little more belief in my abilities.

But perhaps the day I start feeling complacent is the day quality suffers. I should set myself high standards and expect only the very best; otherwise I might as well go back to writing as a hobby. Because if I don't produce the best novel that I have in me, how can I expect a publisher or an agent to pick it up?

I guess the trick is to never take writing for granted but not to let the performance anxiety stop me from getting the job done. Some days it's a very fine line.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Dem's da writing breaks

It’s strange how writing fiction goes. Yesterday I had a wonderful time of it. I wrote with enthusiasm, tapped into a nice rhythm and really got into the story and the characters. My writing was fluid and inspired. Before I knew it I had reached my goal of 1500 words and none too shabby ones at that. I then wrote the day’s blog post in less than half an hour and left the house to do various chores. “I’m on a roll!” I thought, a little smug. “I’m finding my feet and developing my own style. The sky’s the limit.”

Then I got up this morning and started typing away as usual. But something was different. I wasn’t really feeling the characters – they seemed a little two-dimensional, not very realistic. The story seemed to crawl along. I suspected that it was a bit crap, a bit boring. ‘He wonders, she wonders, he looks up, she looks away…’ learn some new words woman! My descriptions were clichéd, my dialogue was as fascinating as cardboard and the build up of tension between the characters was a yawn fest. 800 words in and I wanted to fling my laptop out the window like a frisbee. I finally stopped at 1100 words and I was actually relieved, as it meant fewer words to rewrite later.

Dem’s da breaks! I reckon that it’s good to write every day though, even when I’m not feeling that inspired. Otherwise I’m just a lazy job-dodging lady of leisure. And more importantly I risk getting rusty and losing the thread of the story.